Be a rabbit

. May 24, 2013.
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I bravely went in the back of our basement to purge.  I discovered mouse droppings, a grapevine reindeer with a broken leg that looked like someone should put it out of its misery, an assortment of prom and bridesmaid dresses that confirms that not only men are colorblind, and an old radio that had been there for years. Too bad the battery compartment rusted out.  I also stumbled upon my childhood copy of The Velveteen Rabbit.
This beautiful tale by Margery Williams  is an everlasting reminder of a basic truth: being loved can make you ugly, but only to those who don’t understand.  As the toy horse explained to the little stuffed rabbit who wants to be Real, “Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and you get very shabby.”
Anyone who has ever “mothered” knows that children bring out the stuffed critter in you.  Being a mom could be difficult for the “Princess Barbies” of the world.  You will get slimed, sleep deprived, and become downright joyous when you miraculously fit in grocery shopping, a Target run and a shower all in the same day — yes, DAY. 
Odd things happen to your body that are beyond comprehension.  I nursed. I could supply a Dairy Queen.  I did not “leak” as the little Nursing For Dummies 101 manual stated. I gushed.  This became my new normal.  I was in the store when a kind woman came up to me and sweetly said, “Pumpkin, your milk is leaking.” After a few choice words while grabbing my breasts to assess the situation, she knowingly smiled and said, “The milk in your cart, dear.”
As the children grew, new challenges emerged.  Heading out to a meeting I realized I had red sparkle glitter stuck under my nails, a rip in my tights thanks to a good morning greeting from our pooch, Elmer’s glue encrusted on my thumb making it look as if I had some rare skin disorder, and I was still sporting the pink Fisher Price pretty princess crown.  Obviously, “Business Barbie” was not designed in my image.
I once held vigil by my child’s hospital bed during her stint with a nasty virus.  Some inquisitive nurses came in our room having discovered that I was related to a physician on staff.  They took one look at me and assumed that there was no way I could be kin to anyone with an IQ and asked if I knew where Mary Helen Darah was.  I looked down at my denim overalls, covered in various forms of excrement not only from my ill child but from the Guinea Pig cage I had cleaned earlier that morning, and realized I only had one option.  While running my unpolished nails through my mangled hair, I told them she was at home resting and that I, as the childcare professional, was holding the fort until her return. 
Over the years, I have gained a bit of wisdom. In the words of Gram, “If you throw enough ‘stuff’ at a wall, something is bound to stick.”  If I could live that moment over, I would confess my true identity proudly. I look a bit disheveled from time to time and wear obnoxious sweaters indicative of the current holiday.  This is not due to a lack of professionalism but from having children love me toward the optimal goal of being Real.

Mary Helen Darah has been in marketing and development for nonprofit organizations for the past six years, but her greatest role is being a mom to three amazing and diverse young women. Mary Helen has an innate ability to find humor in her trials, and hopes her writing will give others comic relief and insight through the challenges of parenthood. Mary Helen can be reached c/o editor@annarborfamily.com.